My Soul's Surrender Speaks....

I want to be a Beacon of Light and Truth to Illuminate your Path towards Living your Fullest Potential and Really Taking Ownership of the Gift of Divinity that you Are Here to express in the World! And every Meditation and Surrendering of my Spirit and Soul are Leading me Towards that Fulfillment. I Am Grateful for This Experience of Passion, Clarity and Joy to Serve All people with Truth and Love.

AWAKE - IN - ING

I AM Seeing myself with newborn Awareness
and seeing the world through a vast camera lens.
I AM Gentle and Loving -
can choose not to react -
on this Awakening, Spiritual Cleanse.
I AM breathing IN a new atmosphere -
though the air for it seems sparse here -
but I can create it
by continuing to breathe deeply
with the Divinity withIn me
( and all around me )
if I choose it to Be.
This feeling IS My Destiny.
I AM transcending my mind to Be Free.
Every day I will ALLOW this to Be.
It is Soooooo Wonderful just to Breathe....

I Surrender to my Calling...

I Surrender to my Calling...I Surrender to who I AM...even and especially when it feels bigger than me...It's not for me to judge...It is not bigger or smaller or outside of me...It is just who I AM...And I AM Willing to BEcome more and more of who I AM Already...who I Know myself to BE...I Appreciate and Accept the Vision and Clarity my Soul is speaking to me...And I Let IT BE. Right NOW! And So It Is!

Radiating and Transcending

"E X P A N D I N G the Mind, and Having a Horizon that is Bigger than the size of What you Want to Make an Impact - is ESSENTIAL. You cannot Make a Difference in Something you haven't T R A N S C E N D E D in Your Own VISION." ~ Dr. DeMartini ~

Yesterday.....after having a totally transcendent meditation with my new family at Just Sit....I must have been glowing and radiating this new found peace and clarity because yesterday, so many people at school kept telling me how beautiful my face looked...one girl even said I was glowing...and I looked radiant..and not getting the real reference immediately...I went on to explain my new skin care regimen in great detail!! Then later on....as the comments kept coming....I began to realize...that something had just changed in my aspect....my face perhaps...revealed this new experience and understanding in a soft glow....or maybe even a beaming brilliance! Either way...I want this to always be the affect I have on people when they see me....that I can make my inner beauty far exceed what ANYONE sees when they look their eyes at me. That would be pretty amazing to me...

Always and ALL WAYS

♥ As long as I have B R E A T H in my Body - I will be a Channel for DIVINE L O V E to Flow Through me - and Everything I Need WILL BE taken care of BEcause I BREATHE in the T R U T H of the ALL Good, ALL Receiving, ALL accepting, and ALL Knowing that ALL IS WELL...Always...and ALL WAYS. ♥

Greetings from India from Amazing Healer Friend :)

Thi

namaste form india

how are you these days?

Ava

Hello Beautiful! I am doing so well right now! A lot has shifted...and I am really excited and inspired...I'd say 95% of my pain is gone and the rest feels almost just human normal amounts of pain...but that's on it's way out too!

Thi

wahe guru

bless you oh beautiful soul.

may you live each day to inspire others with your love and incredible light!!!

Me and God, God and Me are ONE

Tami Szabo

Yes, you are a Princess of the Universe, a precious and regal child of God... Perfect, whole and complete... And your current profile picture shows how your external self is reflecting who you are on the inside...

Ava Violette Laurèl

Thank you so much Tami!!! I feel that way too...more than I ever have before in my entire life! I felt so beautiful...because I looked in the mirror and I just saw Divine Beauty in every pore and particle of my Being! It was an incredible feeling! It's somewhat ephemeral because I'm human and have an ego!! - but I feel more connected to the Source of my Being...and THAT...was completely Liberating! xoxoxo

Tami Szabo

How precious to have an experience of who you truly are! The curtain of the ego slipped to the side and you glimpsed the stunning beauty and glory of who you really are. May that truth stay with you as you shine brightly for all to see... That somehow they would discover their own beauty by having witnessed your courage in sharing yours. Shine on gorgeous Princess!

Meditation Afterthoughts...

TRUTH is My IDENTITY.

THIS is the air I Breathe.

THIS is My Destiny.

I GET to Be Right HERE,

Right NOW,

with ME,

with The Spirit Cultivating the Effortless Ability

to CONNECT the World through LOVE & TRUTH

& the Opening of My Soul & Self -

to Share & Teach & Inspire ALL.

THIS is My Path.

THIS is My Place.

THIS I Know to Be TRUTH.

AND SO IT IS.

Dear Agape,

Dear Agape,

I love you so much! I have never been to a place before where I wanted so much to give and support what they're doing. I am so deeply appreciative of ALL that you are, and do - and when I have money to give, GOD KNOWS I will give it. Even though this is only my 3rd time attending - I only have the gas in my car to get there and back right now - but know that the Inspired Spirit that is now more present within me is what I am giving to the world from what you have given me. And very soon - I will be in a place where my perceived constraints on money will never again inhibit me from pouring out my love gifts to those who need them - in whatever capacity. It is within my Destiny - This I Know. Thank you for filling that place in me that was searching for something - searching for me! I found me! I am Alive and So Inspired! Radiating the Magnificence and Truth of Divine Love to touch every soul and mind. I See You. I Honor You. I Love You.

The LA Scene...

Ava Violette Laurèl Is it strange that I have no interest at all in the "LA Scene" anything having to do with copious amounts of alcohol & people getting drunker by the second? I love a lot of the music,often the decor, & I'm always down to dance-but, I am realizing, I kind of just don't like the whole scene of it. All I can think is: I'd rather be in a yoga class where people are buzzing from the energy moving through them vs the alcohol!

Robin Miller

It is not strange. You are not mistaken. The energy IS invasive. Alcohol affects the hypothalmus gland in the brain in a way that, in laymen's terms, makes people greedy for pleasure and essentially they begin to view everything around them as objects for their own enjoyment - including you. I am no prohibitionist, but I personally don't like being around the stuff either.

Ava Violette Laurèl I have been out to bars in all parts of LA - and while some feel less invasive than others...I think it is just where I am at at this point in my life...with just a keen awareness of life and people...and ALL of what Robin said below you I believe to be True...and it doesn't mean I am completely against drinking...it's just, most all of the time now, I would prefer not to put chemicals in my body that alter my state of BEING - when I am seeking to BEcome more of myself everyday..it seems counterintuitive to engage otherwise...to do things that are not in alignment with what I really want for my life...and my body is my instrument for the career that is so important to me, and in that way as well I want to have utmost respect for it. And I guess being in an environment where it seems like so many people are seeking to escape themselves in some way....or to drink to be less inhibited and afraid....I guess....I just want to become those things through other methods of peeling away my insecurities and falseness and allowing my true self to radiate through...but not through concealing any fears via intoxicants will I ever arrive at the certainty of who I am, and who I get to be in this world.

Tami Szabo Ava, I love reading your posts... Is it any wonder you don't like the LA scene when you have discovered the answer is to BE fully alive rather than looking for life outside of you or trying to escape the voice you hear within? In my books, you are even MORE beautiful inside than out!

Ava Violette Laurèl

♥ ♥ ♥ THANK YOU FOR SEEING ME!! I think you described me better than anyone has lately! That is exactly how I feel! Everything I do is in am effort to participate more fully in life...to BE more Present! Thank you for acknowledging me, and seeing who I really am...and enjoying what I put out there...it means a lot to me! You are WONDER FULL! :) ♥ ♥ ♥

Morning Anew....

I need to not stay up until 2:45am if I am planning to wake up at 6:00am to meditate! haha! None the less.....what a Beautifullllllll morning it is......twinkling morning light and crisp new air......Breatheeeee........Be Still.......and Listen......Surrender.....In-Spirit-ation moving through me.....Awakening all senses.....Coming into Full Awareness and Aliveness......I get to be ALIVE.....How Tremendously Awesome is THAT?! :)

Manifesting Reality Unconsciously While Dreaming

You know already, you don't need me to tell you. Are you Prepared to walk through the fire with me? Are you Willing to Speak up for what is Right - Knowing that YOU hold the Power to Transform Everything...and Give someone a chance at a better Life? If not YOU, who? If not NOW, when? You Have This AWARENESS for a Reason. It is a Gift...and a Responsibility. Move with the Spirit of Healing the World, one Life at a time. Move NOW.

Unreasonable

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore, all progress depends on the unreasonable man." ~George Bernard Shaw

No matter what you have done, or haven't done...you are Worthy of Love.

Surrender to the Infinite Energy....Allow Yourself to Open and the Breath of Life to Flow Through You.....THIS IS LIFE....THIS is what it is ALL ABOUT!

No matter what you have done, or haven't done...you are Worthy of Love.

Yesterday I had probably the MOST amazing experience of my life.

The most AMAZING FIVE hours.......in a one on one session with the genius, healer, speaker, life transformer...Dr. John DeMartini.

I asked the Universe for Transformation...I proclaimed it with absolute certainty...and THIS IS WHAT IT BROUGHT ME!! There is nothing that could have topped what I have been given!

I am amazed at how blessed I am to have been given this opportunity....as I know this is the kind of thing he never does! He travels around the world speaking to groups of people...often in very large numbers....affecting positive change...in the individual...transforming everything in their life that they once perceived as "bad" or "abuse" or whatever it may be....and shows you how every singe particle of a feeling regarding any event in your life....however traumatic you once felt it was......that it is something to be grateful for...and really breaks it down in the most concise and thorough way....that you will FULLY believe it...and have FULL gratitude for these events and EVERYTHING that NOW are capable of...and the faculties and talents and abilities that are now within you as a DIRECT result....because if these events had not taken place...you WOULD NOT be living in the brilliance and wonderment that you are now...or you would not have that potential in the same way. I said yesterday....Everyone has a contribution to make, but perhaps I am just now able to contribute that much more.

I am still feeling overwhelmed with everything that was cleared and transformed yesterday....I will write more in this post later.....I just have to sit with all that I have written already...and let it all wash over me.

It's raining in Los Angeles....for 3 days now...a rare event....and yet ever so appropriate...to let the rain wash away and wash over me....fully immersed.....surrendering to it's infinite greatness and good...The rain will just fall when it will...it does not need to be told....It will pour down when it deems necessary....and stop when it feels it is done.

There is so much certainty in the Universe....and I feel this certainty with even more certainty today than I did yesterday...and the day before....and there is just an opening and unfolding of MY LIFE and my GREATNESS to SHARE with the WORLD in new and exciting ways that I AM NOW SO FULLY AWARE OF........and I am just feeling utterly blessed that I get to be part of the change in the world....to help and heal and facilitate the GOOD...and RIGHT actions to take place....to heal our hearts....to speak SOUL TO SOUL.....

I GET TO DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I get to live my life empowered.....with divine purpose and intention and all from some experiences that I feel nothing but gratitude for....knowing now that EVERY tiny fragment of an emotion or feeling I had in those moments regarding those experiences...and years of self-torment....it has all been transformed....and will all be used to create the greatest good I can conceive of...and then whatever I can conceive of to create...will then connect to the SPIRIT of GOD within me....and it will take on an even deeper strength and purpose and take me to PROFOUND LEVELS.....

deep breath......

Ok...more later!! :)

What about NOW?

What about NOW?

Just a thought....whatever it is....How about NOW? :)

So much to say....and so little time right NOW....BUT, later on....I will update about the amazingness that is going to be my NEW (used) CAR!! WooooooooHoooooooo!!!

Godspeed your every breath and step today!

11 Signs of a Spiritual Awakening

Is it too egotistical to say I think my Spirit is Awakening...I am not sure...except that I know I feel extraordinary and quite possibly more ALIVE and AWAKE then I have ever felt in my entire life up to this point. Something has opened up in me...I feel it tingling through every pore in my body...with this tingling and almost numb feeling seeping out of me....bringing with it this electric energy!

I have been writing incessantly for the past week, and so to hold onto this overflow of spiritual insight I am blogging it here to reflect back on during this process.....isn't it all just a process...it's so good.....soooooo good!

I will start posting bits of insight, quotes, thoughts, streams of consciousness as they come to me...questions..wonderings...anythings! :)

Eleven Signs of a Spiritual Awakening
(Source Unknown)

1. Frequent attacks of smiling.

2. Feelings of being connected with others and nature.

3. Frequent overwhelming episodes of appreciation.

4. A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than from fears based experience.

5. An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.

6. A loss of ability to worry.

7. A loss of interest in conflict.

8. A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.

9. A loss of interest in judging others.

10. A loss of interest in judging self.

11. Gaining the ability to love without expecting anything in return.

Evening Meditation: The thought that came to me....

"I am floating in the Ocean of my Soul - in the Expansiveness of Love - which is my whole Being."

Mmmmm.....I'd like to breathe into that for awhile longer - but a tinyyy itch on my forehead awoke me!!

All is Well.

Divine Music resounds within me.......I am Peace....Peace is in Me......

Free........to Breathe........Infinity.......

I am tripping out on Life.....I can't believe how unbelievably amazing it is to BREATHE!!!

Justttttt Breatheeeeee.........

My body literally feels like it is vibrating....I understand that word like I never have before!

I can't even type anymore...but I need to come down because I have things to do tonight!! haha!

Until Soon....

May the Longtime Sun Shine Upon You

All Love Surround You

And the Pure Light Within You

Guide Your Way On

:)